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HEYY!! fresh new bloggie :p

okok...today..teacher lagged abit..sighh..but then
our form teacher was active today..**claps!**
ok...how was i feeling today??? today is wednesday..always a boredom day
for me.. :( gheess.. i just had fun with my friends normally..not to
extreme mood today..was fifty-fifty in mind..sleeping half way...
friends nabbed my pic when i dozed offf..sighh.~ no comment.. : maybe if
techers or friends were in my place to go thru my routine..lets see..
if they appear as tired as iam..hmmm...i just dozed off for awhile..
sighhh...cant stop tugging in class..ive tried my best to stay awake..
I SWEARRRRRRRRR!!! ARGH! i MISSED MY LOVE a DOZZENNNN today
he went for an interview:) YEAHH HE GOT IN:)
i hope he have a good rest :D as the place he choose was near to his home:)
veryveryvery happy for him.... :DDDDDDDDDDDDDDD
just looking forward till end of exams :) &&
ANOTHER OUTING WITH DEAREST LOVED;

im getting tired to hold on tight.
but to let go,& fall to deepest sleep,escaped,
& its another day the next morning onward:)

okie..post up again next time..
&& yes..

i loved this blogg name to the core!

DIARYINHERIA-WEPREDICTRIOT.BS :DD

THURSDAY...
dead bored!

1 pathetic quetion please..! why am i always grounded..???
like some nuts?? sigh..my minds quite tight now...its so crammped..
& all i want is a great escape plan..,to end all boredness...& kill all pain...
but then..ive left with no choice..im out here not knowing how to figure it all out..everything was ouh so fine today...very very plain....indeed quite...
yahh..!i hate assembly..dont ask me why...i cramp like shiatt..haha..sat for 1 hr ++ they trying to make our butt like pancakes..hahaha :DDD lol... -_-''
okok..today nothing much happens...just normal..where my bitch keep
suffocating me with its hands...like everyday....one day if i really cannot breath,
i find you!..haha.. :)
buds bought preety dress today..greens the beam(:

& im fighting with stupid robots..& ask the robot to answer my quetion!
post up later!(:

ok im back!

i miss my love!
i swearr!!!((((((((:

bye!thats all!(:



LETS TAKE THINGS SLOW,..SHALL WE..??




today is gloomy wednesday..feel like dying already..
teachers lesson for today is fregging BAD! cause all are so slack..:(

indeed..i felt like an orphans today.,. :) haha..in terms of, i slept like
everywhere..when listening,when sitting..hha..i slept everywhere..haha :D

funny though..but yet..i couldnt help..its not on purpose... :)
i feel like ive abandoned this blog..rest assured...i still got it now on
track..well yeah..theres not lotsa stuff to read about...
ouh ya..hahha..LOVE bought me my favourite ass cap...!..

i almost cried when i receive it. :DDDD yesterday just met my love...
& today..i sit all the way home...missing my love....ive gotta pull myslef
together dude! and yess...ive been on slippers for these days..blame my
blood,! cause it cant stop flowing...that stupid lameooo techer..ask for mc..

& i say "YAH! I GOT MC...!!" he said "wheere IS IT!!!!!???" i said... "I GAVE IT TO MONITOR...!" HE SAID" THE MC DOESNT WRITE ANYTHING..IT ONLY
WRITE HOW MANY DAYS MC..." I WAS LIKE ..are you stupid or what!!!haha
its like..mc of cause it tells you lah..howmany days ure not in school..

& he counted today date as well..from the the day i came bck school..after the mc... & said is not approved..OMG! HES BLIND..WHO IS HE TALKING TOO
JUST NOW..I THINK HE TALKS TO THE GHOST...Ouuhhwoow! I WAS NOT AT SCHOOL..

WHEN HE ASK ME WHERES MY MC A FEW MINS AGO..
LIKE wdh..! mc is for days ur absence for school..not count the days you are in school also ryte?? that means he wants to keep alot of paper in his bag..
& let each of our classmate to give mc before stepping in the class..
-_-'' so unreasonable..

okok...ithhink i was such quite inocent then,..who just doesnt talk much..
ivr grown much hope now..to stand out the way i am..
so,whatever i say for now onwards was me...& it doesnt matter if it
doesnt sounds ur way...

so..here i am..
blinding through smiles of people,
i agree,none was really true..cause what i see...was
not what i imagined...to be..
friends was just one word,u see/hear each time..
but it hides a million more to let you know..

yupp,friends forever..& those you can keep..
haha...
ok..
but is that what really lies in within??


labels: miss my beloved boy(:
mood:bored,confused,depressed.


moving on..~

WEDNESDAY~

another day without my beloved boy...
if i could...i will hold on to the troubles & excessive pain that im going through
but then..i cant help it by telling you all my problems..i knew you might worry,.
but thats not what i want...ive not been going well with family these days..
& boy..since you left hometown..ive been through thick & thin by my own...
& you told me to dtay strong through whatever it is..& love...ive been waiting for ur return..(: the days are getting nearer..& im trying to put blind smile through
anything i see..cause it not only hides my pain...but my true personality too..
if anyone think that i dun behave like what a proper girl should behave,
well im sorry,& sad to say.. i dont live to please ppeople...i think that im ok..
even if i dont look like..(: & if anyone should think that i behave like a boy..
with no manners ahead.& i love fighting with my ass funny mates in class..
then,have it your way..cause i dun care much on what people...
THANKS FOR ALL THE WISHES ALL MY FRIENDS!!(:
JOY,IM OK...HAHA(: IT STILL HURTS LIKE $%^^&*&
BUT,WHO SAYS IM NOT STRONG ENUF O ENDURE(:

i treasure my friends....
ps.i will try to hold on longer..even if it kills to take my breathe away~

today is MONDAY...
seems kinda plain to me... :( cause ive been resting like the whole
%^&***#@! shiaty hours...but then feels good(: its not always,i got a rest like that... :p ive been watching STOMPyard with granny (: hehehe cool ehs?
i told her to watch with me..in the end she enjoy the show ubber much!
& ive been eating alot,...& playing comp..for the day....im thinking bout my beloved boy now..hehe(:

okok gtg!
dads home!

MONDAY POST(:



& thank god im still alive..

going back to school after 3 days mc (:
im goin to miss my physicall fitness test today
& i hate it..

continue from my saturday post..
the prayers was great!!(:

i get to see all my beloved cussins once again(:
esp all my cuss sis& brothers!
yea..we did crack up lameoo joke & tease
but most of all..
i really do miss our together ness..
:( i hope we could do it more often :)

& yes..
i love them all(:

ouh yes too!!
i'll be seeing my beloved soon!:)

nite2!

WHEN YOU READ MY SATURDAY POST BELOW,

PAUSE MY MAIN BLOG SONG ON THE RIGHT SIDE ENTITLED

"STEREO-OE" AND PLAY THIS SONG..a better feel,..shall we? :)

SATURDAY MORNING~

geesh,..i woke up eff early today..at 7:30..haha..this is the first time,on just a saturday day..where peole always wake up in the noon ;) ok..so,..today,... mates
left me a msg..telling me theres class today...at 10am..yes,agreed..it not too late
to tell me last min..as its only 8,by the time i replied..:D barely..i coulnt attend..
why..?? ok..this is why.. :) i have prayers as a whole cussins & family..coming together..it rarely done ok..but today is it!..well..,i still could feel..
the presence of dark memory flashing back at me again...that i could not
avoid..yet endure..
i really miss my beloved boy...its been days...i didnt get to see his face..
boy i really miss you :) that explains all :) ive been grounded..as usuall..
*clapp**clap*** & he understands that..yep..,he always do..:)

everytime..i imagined..what it feels like right beside you..~
and i know he feels it too...
boy..,how am i to fix things up.??
love,..if you could stay half of ur heart with me..
bet you feel my pain tooo..

and yes...my mates syahidah,sorry if i caused you
to sit outside of the class too..well..friends forgive & forget..i'd stay with you
too didnt i..? as tcher didnt notice me at first..i raise my hand up..


to be there with you too..

my beloved boy...,
how i wonder,...
what would it be like when school starts again..
im bearing it..~

& i know..,your way,much better than me..
more smarter..comparing to a dumb look like mine..
ure much2 sweeter than i am...u got good friends all around you,
comparing to a silent old me..
thats left dusty..~

& cause i know......, i knoww....~


loves,
me,silent rotting kid!geesh...
it wasnt because im mute,& i cant talk
its only cause, speechless..& none else more

PAUSE THE BLOG SONG THAT IS PLACED ON THE RIGHT

SIDE,ENTITLED "STEREO-OE" & PLAY THIS SONG WHILE READING

THE POST BELOW,PERHAPS...A BETTER FEEL..shall we?

HEAVENLY FRIDAY~..........

seemed like ive much to tolerate about now...well,people may not
seemed to know or even realise..that ive already have far too much mess to
keep in about...but then..if problems seemed to be crashing in..all i could do
is to streched out my hands..& hold on to all the damn stuffs in..i cant
be bothered bout teachers picking up people they dont like..& pushed them aside..preety much..like" its up to thier mood" if theyre good,they treat you good,if theyre mad..so be just like how they treat you...its getting harder
evrytime..to keep understanding...but ,id keep trying hard too,to understand
the hall way of another story..i agree,ive been sleeping in class recently..
but then..,i swear it was not on purpose..! i just fell out off sight suddenly..
but it was also only less than 15 min..not more than that..i was trying to put effort to stand my eyes..i was bearing the pain,the problems, deep inside..
& i got a pat in my back,to have been rewarded a suspension..how do i feel?
seriously....do you understand that..??family have been pushing on me hard
these few days...despite of the old crack up problems we used to have as a family,and now..they are trying to get me back on my track,to be a usuall person
like i used to..ive been bragging for days,cause i realise,half of the usuall
me was already ruined by previous attempt.& cause i got another half left
its a bit hard to move on by a little..but i was trying..i seriously was..
my beloved,help me a whole bunch..he is even trying to pull me back together
to start a new,a fresh one..& a better one of course...but all i did was
lagging...and lagging...like a n old one...if i could have a million pleses to give you..,i would have started recording my apology now..& my beloved boy,and only the handsome one to my eyes...,if ure reading this..im promised to
put myself back on track!:) i will be the one whom you want me to be:)
i will push on harder..even if i have to dragg myself to reach destination..
but look at the matter love...hows my teacher?,my class..???
i know its not the reason...but yes..ure true....
i love you,...& i would do it over again...

and because i loved you,
i see you as my one and only..
keep me up with ur guidiance..
send me ur truckloads of encouragement
i love you boy...

i wont go home without you(:
cause u always send me back home upright to my doorstep:)
& give me a last kiss b4 going to bed..

im stronger,with you... ~:')

ive been writting this post 3 time..& i wrote back my long story again.

but the post is preety shit enuf to dissapear! WOOOW! great!

preety much sad storyies i wrote there..

maybe another time..i retype it again..:)

enjoy the song!

i love my readers!:) weeess!

despite sitting down here..browsing through thick & thin of life..
i realise being the originall you,will be the only smartest thing people could
only show..i used to be half on breath..when i go through tough moments
i have to pull on myself together..yet if my smiles covers a whole lot more than my real identity itself..its not because of my weakness,neither bcos i was pretending to go on strong..its bcos,having to realise from this marbled eyed
that seemed all so watery evrytime :) walking to doorsteps of classrooms..
& to sit on my chair to start studying,allmost tugged me,falling flat to the ground,as if i was forced..NO..it was not about giving up in studies..
its bcause,to face problems..that keep reaching on to you evrytime,evn,any
where you go..u feel helpless.. i didnt expect much,like kissing me on my forhead b4 i used to go to sleep evrynight,or even a simple well done
from your own family...that was like centuries ago..
i felt one part of torn pages was missplaced..just to give it a nice finishing
story..
sometimes..it just feel like,some one tuggings ur hair,
telling you this & that,being far dragged away..

but you know what...
just one thing...

at least..i got one thing i could hang on..
my one love...

:')

aman..

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