HEAVENLY FRIDAY~.......... seemed like ive much to tolerate about now...well,people may not seemed to know or even realise..that ive already have far too much mess to keep in about...but then..if problems seemed to be crashing in..all i could do is to streched out my hands..& hold on to all the damn stuffs in..i cant be bothered bout teachers picking up people they dont like..& pushed them aside..preety much..like" its up to thier mood" if theyre good,they treat you good,if theyre mad..so be just like how they treat you...its getting harder evrytime..to keep understanding...but ,id keep trying hard too,to understand the hall way of another story..i agree,ive been sleeping in class recently.. but then..,i swear it was not on purpose..! i just fell out off sight suddenly.. but it was also only less than 15 min..not more than that..i was trying to put effort to stand my eyes..i was bearing the pain,the problems, deep inside.. & i got a pat in my back,to have been rewarded a suspension..how do i feel? seriously....do you understand that..??family have been pushing on me hard these few days...despite of the old crack up problems we used to have as a family,and now..they are trying to get me back on my track,to be a usuall person like i used to..ive been bragging for days,cause i realise,half of the usuall me was already ruined by previous attempt.& cause i got another half left its a bit hard to move on by a little..but i was trying..i seriously was.. my beloved,help me a whole bunch..he is even trying to pull me back together to start a new,a fresh one..& a better one of course...but all i did was lagging...and lagging...like a n old one...if i could have a million pleses to give you..,i would have started recording my apology now..& my beloved boy,and only the handsome one to my eyes...,if ure reading this..im promised to put myself back on track!:) i will be the one whom you want me to be:) i will push on harder..even if i have to dragg myself to reach destination.. but look at the matter love...hows my teacher?,my class..??? i know its not the reason...but yes..ure true.... i love you,...& i would do it over again... and because i loved you, i see you as my one and only.. keep me up with ur guidiance.. send me ur truckloads of encouragement i love you boy... i wont go home without you(: cause u always send me back home upright to my doorstep:) & give me a last kiss b4 going to bed.. im stronger,with you... ~:')