Keep your eyes on the road.

Wednesday, May 28, 2008

diaryinheria was created for her life,& truth.

most of the time,i'll be in school,with all my asses freaks to finish up
my coursework..,but the fact was,i sitting still on my chair,the whole time,
doing nothing..well,u people may think i was thinking..am i..?? hahaha..well,
probably..yes..but with no reason at all..i was pissed when i changed from bill to pre-paid. im damn bloody pissed,!! haha..but,ok..yah..i will try getting use to it.
hows my day..& the past days..it was like an empty box,...can imagine that??
hehe :D okok..& the pastime was,crying,shedding tears secretly..without no one noticing..hell,i was strong.i cry not because i was weak or afraid.
cos this was hanging on in me..& i broke down.. :) yes,im fine..now.. :p
i wondered if..ive gonna smile again..im still staying positive,
but,thats just a ques.im trying to move on without love being near me evertime.
& getting used was hard,but rest assured.i'll stsay strong,& try not to
think bout it too much..love felt tirec too after work..
he says i will speak some lovey dovey before i sleep.well i guess it takes much of
his time.& im ending it with a short bye.
&& yah..adding on..theres more on my life that i kept in me..
& not letting things go..

as something bad is coming up now..

byee

Sunday, May 18, 2008

its been hard off these days,ive gotten all the results in..sighh fewwhh..
everything felt ouh-so shattered like broken pieces glass..that cant be
touched,or even fixed into place..as i felt blogger isnt a good place to share the
inner thought as,blogger is not privacy,..i just dont feel right though..sighh~
ive been sighing for the past days,dont forget the nights too..,before im off to bed..i only hoped that,he would feel what i felt..now,its obvious that i need
him now,often..but then..i realised,he cant always be there,..not always..
i feel something was a miss..i felt somethings hidden in you..i just can feel it..
its so strong to make me feel so sure...& uncomfortable to ask it out..if
only you could say it out..without me asking it..

& yestersay outing was a short one with me and love..
about an 1hr pluss??..
love..cant you see those iced eyes of mine??
it hardly drop a tear infront of you..its drowning right behind you
everytime..
im off looking to a positive side everyday...to make it better & brighter..
love..i told you i will make this last..i promise..& you shall do it too..

love...i felt that ive been pouring all the love to you each day..
without failing..&& now..i felt ,as if..it was a one sided love now..

love..isnt this the time you gave in yours?? love...once more if id had to repeat,
i trusted you..for what you've done,even for what you said,for where youve been,
from whom ure with...i really trust you..&& never once it crossed my mind
to deny you...
love will you do the same???

love....
if only you knew i need you now..
let me drowned all my tears to you...

love,you knew me better ryte??:)
love,..do you know i need you now?? :'D

im puzzeled..

i love you.. love:)

much loves,
:D

Thursday, May 15, 2008

THURSDAY

EDIBLE CANDY STARS

its been 3 days now without love :(

im still hanging on..heheh :D he is so addictive..haha :DD

he has the sweet sincere smile i love:) currently in shocking mood..

after my friend sent me msg about the voodoo happening in indonesia,

that involve in using telephoe..she said,if its a long winded no. & appears red,

dont pick up,..she got this news from her sister husband bout it..

alot of them has hit this curfew.. :( sad eh.. 10 in indonessia && 9 a while ago in

thailand..its so cyber now..anything could hapen..its about "being extra" carefull

while receiving calls nowadays,may be danger or prank even..so..

just put that in mind or two:) just ageneral reminder perhaps ;)

ive been currently in love with grooving base beats,..eg like neyo & anyone that

has soothing voice like that.. :p well..im still stuck in staring on com,just

like yesterday story did..**crossing my fingers tight** hoping to have

a day with love soon :) if only i could have him like sticky tape,so as he could

stick around with me no matter where :D

maybe he may think im partly insane..haha :p cos i keep saying the common words i used to express feelings & repeat it over & over again...

but,i cant help it...if i treasure that someone...i really..really doo.. :p

that is me.. ;D

today,ive been eating like mad,..

& ive put on alot of fats & weight..the truth is,

i am never slim before..i have never had flat tummy..bulging one i guess :)

but its ok...cos u know what..i tell myself that..as long as i feel happy eating :p..its ok then :))))))))) looks=nothing the heart does all :)

ive got lots of craves in mind,starting from sk8boards

& lots of top!

"el,!! what have you been up to these days?? hehe..preety much at home aye??

its obvious i guess!!HAHAHAH!!,so uve eaten?? :) well,yes im fine el, dun worry,

i'll be home late today,so dont wait..NAHH nono..dun wait..head off to bed

early alright..yes i noe..i love you too el.. "

goodnight sweetloves,

much love

*whats the quote about?? a made up stories what i imagined my loved would said;DD"

iloveediblestars:)))))))))))))

Wednesday, May 14, 2008

WEDNESDAY

LETS ALL BELIEVE :)

its two-days away without my darl'love :p

sighh..ive been rotting like,even more rotten that anything else.. -_-''

ok..ya..ya,..true..ive not been sleeping well,& at times,i fell asleep out of

nowhere,but then..hols,are preety much tiring..than school days,ive been thinking to start working again...but then,ive heard that i still got classes

at night time,so its around a fifty2 choice for me.. :) imagine,i was staring at the robot com that seems so "human geniously made" that is the computer lah..

for the whole **** day! goshhh... i swear..i got nothing else to do..

i was waiting for my love to msg me,or to ask me out..but he's busy,till the week

so ive had to bear,..each day apart from him makes me feell...soooooooooo

helpless,..but yet,i knew he put me in his heart no matter where he goes,

you see..his very important to me ryte now,for a moment of time,

ive at least felt the peaceness of the world,..with him,ive forget all about my huge nasty problems,& as i promised,i will make this last..

i'll pray hard,& promise to be patient,to go thru the challenges ahead of time

cause at least now i realise,love is not bad,nor harmfull,but only humans

are nastier,& making love a bad meaning,.loving anyone,is wonderfull

but understanding he true meaning,means alot more....

on certain times,i felt,i was harsh..,but after a few mins later,i realise what i

said was wrong,so indeed,i wont reapeat & apologise :)

it just takes time,to feel something,cos everything,needs thinking,& time..

understanding makes it a whole lot better...

ive been savey,yet thrifty..

but it helps later,cos hols coming

hols=no money :) hahahah..

so tell me...before hols start,what is my decision to plan??

i got dnt to go on..my workpiece..&& how about $$$

ive been wanting & bragging bout buying stuff since the first month of 2008

so shud i work to get $$$

or...

put that later..???hahaha..im confused,

let me decide on that later....more cravings in mind,!

sushi,brownies,aunties anne,chippy,ramen!!

&& MORE....!!

so shud i??? hahaa..buying 1 sushi makes me think the whole way,&&

ended up not buying,cos if you have a cash,& when u bought it,..the amount

will be smashed with some dollars& some cents..&& ot doesnt look nice

as the dollar note you had the first place ryte?? hahaha:)

munching on choc coated wafer now :p ubber nyumm!

yet stuck on the screen to type more stories..

well readers,do ever trust ur dreams?? hehehe :D

&& you know what,an hour ago,i got this silly idea..to cut my own hair..

cos i wanna make it more unique..

but i didnt,cos im afaird,the next time i cut my hair at any shop,they may not

be able to folow the style that i wanted ;p

so dont try these at home,* if ure crazier enuf to think like mine ;) hahaha

STILLLLLL I MISSED HIMMM...&& ITS HIS FIRST DAY AT A NEW

WORK PLACE,:D he'll do fine ;DDDDD

groving into my songs??

wel,hit the floor & groove that !!:P

hehehe

much love

Sunday, May 11, 2008

MONDAY(:

happy mothers day to all mum :DDD

split tounges

love & me went to arcade..,id want to try on our luck,& the first dollar

was gone..we prayed hard on another ufo catcher,& it wasnt that bad :p he got me a stitch :DDDDDDDDD. i was over joyed ok! :pppp

i learnt a lesson..cos ive been wanting to win prizes in the ufo catcher for a

long time,& i promised him not to play ufo cathcer again..cos its part

of gambling,& im merely addicted..hahaha..& not hat i got my prize,

its time to quit :DDD

i rated my 1 week 10/10, cos ive been with him everyday :)

we talk,shed tears,we laugh,we crap, together :)

upside down :)

see how crazy our days were?? :)))

hoodies&sk8 shoes got us covered for the day :p

see my evil face :p & his sweet cheeks ;D

its worth lot more :)))

hahah..ok..done with the photos,

& the test papers are gonna be over soonn...id knew it wasnt well done at all..

& ive gonna muggg ubber hard,for all the marks ive missed,that means

more stay backs after school,more squeezing of brains,..& more

stressing eyebrows :) hees..:) but it worth wasnt it?? ;D

heading back home after school was like heaven :) cos ive been wanting all the sleeps ive been missing every night! :p && the days ive had with my love

was really really realllyyy FUN!! love, i wonder what ill do without you..

youre more good than anyone elses,& the attention needed was arrange well

& ive got all the love i need,love your sweet smile brightened up almost

all the time..it makes me feel like biting you everytime the dimples appear ;D

excuse me for all the blueblacks on yourhand,cos you taste delicious hahaha

:DDDD jk! :p love, everything u showered with me was a bless indeed,

thou shall i pray our everlasting relationships :)

im currently staring at the stitchtoy ive had :)

ive been smiling like 24hrs! its damn adorable :p
hahha:p love,save me from all the mouth ached i had

after all the laughters we had together,everyday was lie a smiling lesson ;p

hehehe :)

love,ive do anything to withstand,bearing with pain :)

"el,you there yet?? el,ure late again..heheh be fast alright,

ive been waiting.hehe..ok..at the same place we allways meet,see you soon"

el??

its my 2nd nick name,no contact with my name at all..but it suits me fine ;D

bye readers!

loves,

Tuesday, May 6, 2008

WEDNESDAY

im so sick to look the best,just go gugu :p

im munching on the soft marshyymellow:D

MY BEAUTIFUL DAYS WITH LOVE,

WEDNESDAY

END OF ENGLISH PAPER..

i swear its veryvery stressfull :(

ive been on the go like..everyday...tell me the craziest thing ive done so far ehs??

studying everywhere..even..annywhere..!its possible ok!

& now loves schooling..im at home since 10plus onwards..

fast ehss?? haha :DD english paper was eff hard..but so..so...now im stcuck at home waiting for dearest cuss-sis & head off to dinner later on..

so the past few days was being with love we play arcade..shit the ufo catcher

i was nearly got the stuff!!!! but it sliped off..

there goes my $$$$$$$$$$$$ -_-'' ok..!u can call me broke..

but its worth the play...it gives you the sense of scaredness :) hahahaha

love must be busy thesedays :) hahaha..

but wrth the wait...his nvr less in time.. :p

im siaoo2 watching tv now...im feeling dizzy..going to be in the" no mood" already...

those photos are latest..

till here..

Saturday, May 3, 2008

SUNDAY

yesterday, that is..saturday,i went for cooking lesson
near jurong west are..spend like a couple of hours there..
sweaty & all of the heat on my body.. :) feewhh! but worth the make..
turn out nice & fine :) & going to give some of it to my loooves:p
yesterday..REALLY RALLY MISSS my love MUCCCCHHHH K!
& he went off singapore to accompany his dearest mum:) & he didnt get
to reply any of my text msges... :( sighh.. he told me,he may be overnite there
with his mum & cussins..siince all of them are there...but he says..it might
not be 100% sure if his going overnite there..
end up...i didnt receive any calls...&& im sure he's overniting there...
but rest assured...at least i knew where he went :D just that i deeply missed
him :) i give like ^%***@##&* callsss ALOTTTT OF MISS calls..haha
just to make sure he reached singapore..but till now,
still not yet...sighh~ i was planning to go out with him... :') lets see...if he text me later.... but im here still veryveryveryvery...confused waiting.. :(
wil he go outwith me..or the other way around..

ive been sick these few days....VERYVERYVERy sickkk!
but i'll hang on....hahhaha:DDDD
cookie pictoot will be uploading soon...opps! i mean muffin..not cookies..
hahahha :)

ok till here...

mood:confused:

labels:waiting for dearest love to return.

ouh ya...
i just ran out of words..seriously..
i feel like dropping dead now,goodbye :)

Friday, May 2, 2008

FRIDAY

today was mother tounge paper one!
who says it was easy??
erhh,..hmmph...well..its kindof hard yeah..so..soo.. :
i woke up veryvery very sleepy..love didnt wake me up today..so i overslept..
& yaHH! today is like an insect day...HHOOORAYY-_-'' i woke up..went to toilet
my eyes was DARN EFF fast..i spot a lizard..shucks..i look at it about 2 min..& its head turn to my direction...like duuhhhh..since when it notice i was watching it...haha :DD ookok..i climbed so high..i just hope it doesnt fell on my
head again..haha..& it doesnt want to come out..atlast..he squeezed into the thin hole i left ajar..& i squashed it! DAMMn!HAHAHHA:DDDDD
& a spider jump..ok..another insect..i sighh!..~i got no comment..
&& yahh SHIAATTTTT..THE LIZARD NVR DIE! it come bck in the toilet again..& now i stand on the toilet lid cover..soo stupid!i scold the lizard..!
i was like"i got exam you know!!!!! i need to be fast..in the end i lagged chasing after the lizard""!!!!! hahha..but i went off after that..im done :D
went off to j.e with love buds went study...
the librian shout the fuct at me..like WDH! i just sat at the floor..
how bout the others?? SHIATTT again~ i feel like going home..end up..
we study at LJS outdoor.. :) had fun! we teased lots of people..
haha..
came back home..otw the frog jump..jump jump...haha...
i went doen the staicasefrom 6th level..to reach my house & i saw a moth..
& luckyly it doesnt fly around..or i fuct run! hahaha.. :)))))

okok..& im really tired after all the insect day today.. -_-'' feewhhh
GUESS WHAT..

I EFFFFFING MISSSS MY BELOVED BOY :D

mood:dizzy
labels.:i miss my love:)

gdnight readers..post up again..
even tough i was messed up here & there..i wouldnt mind
throwing a smile..& squeezing everything into a bottle deep in me to make
everything right.. ;)
all that matter is you ;D

gdnight,
swetloves,lovers,heartbreakers,heartbroken,heartacher,

:D