ive just woke up a few mins back..so..a good afternoon.. :DDDDD hahha ok..i feel dizzy now...-_-'' the first thing that appeared in my brain is.."the computer" 0.o ...my coursework are taking control of me...hahahhaa..and i feel like robot(: & the next thing in mind..of cos...my blogging...& hey!its the first day to my N'levels.. im not sure how i rate it..but lets hope everything gonna turn out fine:D... my days gonna be supper free...as...ok..i wont want to repeat it.. im still holding strong...rest assured....i'll swing my way out of these doors...& i will.. if running away was my options..& i would...you get the link somehow???i will do anything.. for a person whose loving me,and hating me too soon...so im gonna get the fact right.. he dont love me no more..and..when i remebered the way i plead...it felt too deep to understand my real thoughts...even if i bleed...like waterfall..as i know...u wont care...like how it is now. u hurt me..letting me go..just for the sake to satisfy what u want...well,...its not always about you boy...i got my stand too...& ure making me sacrifise..just because u wanted to go the way u want..& if u said you cared bout my feelings...and if u breathed to say u loved me.. im more broken than ever to say that...u lied,...u nvr did..if u did.. u wouldnt make me feel so hurt to cry for buckets & days with swallen eyes..just for you.. i contacted you...but u dont feel easy...im feeling you..i know when u dont & when u said u really do...everything was made up..to a fine story..where one lived,and the other one made sacrifises..& i play the role in the sacrifises for real.. to be lying down flat..was where u want me too..& to be stepped on so hard.. im still here breathing.. not losing yet.. im hanging on..
Sunday, June 29, 2008
heyy agai!!(: its 12.03am now!! so...GOOD MORNING MONDAYYY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :dddd IVE BENN MUGGING through coursework ok.. ;) sighh..many things happened.but.....!i dont wish top repeat anyof them here..or it wount be any privercy anymore... -_-'' sighh.i admitt..tough life..everyday is toughh...but id bet...if i doesnt do something...nothings gonna change....so im taking a leap now..a big one..to change my surroundings.. no more loveyy doveyy mushyy stuffs...JUST ME OK.. i might turned agrresive now..so bear with me for a moment dudes and dudettes,..cos a big surprise was given to me the past days.. & it shatter me more than a glass..so id have to get uised to surroundings,,,it may take years.. but...im happy..to know..im back to square one..&& people still equals= to shit..hahaha,.. lmaoo -_-''... so im backk...im gonna make my days ubber busy.. & start visiiting grandmother..or cussins.. my weeks are free now... && cant wait to be 18teen...so id got a bike to school :) && no bitches gonna ride with me..only me.. :DDD hahaha..&& yahh..still wishing for the goddamn hair to grow fast...& line them with red streaks! more piercing..woooooww bebeh!!! hahaha ;))))sighh....!! more outing with family :))))))))) && last.. i wont fall in love only till i was 18!
Monday, June 23, 2008
ok..& so..ive not been posting up for ubberly long time.. :))) busy?? nah...! :) my comp spoiled; XD!! hahaha!! ok not suppose to be funnny actually.. anyway..not my fault..cos ive not been handling com always..what so good being on the net?? dead bored-_-'' i was moost of the time sleeping..so yahh..no comps! haha.. & schools atrts just now..i was late & give a straight warning letter -_-'' yadda...yadda! im sick of it..sighhs..ani one understoods me here?? lol..~ its 10:15 now..still staring at my phone..hope it rings..waiting for love..but i guess...he would call me..so thats it.... -_-'' im gonna off my hp soon..save battery.. :) june hols are like school days..& school days are like school.. 0.o!! hahahaa,...so SAVVEEEEEEEEEEE MEEEEEEEEEE! ouh yah..i did course work straight after school this afternoon..hardworking ehs? & i was sick yesterday..38.5degress... -_-''help!! & i fell asleep in the dnt room.. for 3 f******* hrs..sighh...life toughh.. hang on.. :) my bloggs got a fresh new look,despite of the old one..! image was cleared off.. & sort off putting me in no mood to blog anymore... special days are a few days away.. i wanna make this a surprise.. lets all pray its gonna be good ;) im lagging....sighhs.. help..??! again?? :(( much loves.. ;D