ive just woke up a few mins back..so..a good afternoon.. :DDDDD hahha ok..i feel dizzy now...-_-'' the first thing that appeared in my brain is.."the computer" 0.o ...my coursework are taking control of me...hahahhaa..and i feel like robot(: & the next thing in mind..of cos...my blogging...& hey!its the first day to my N'levels.. im not sure how i rate it..but lets hope everything gonna turn out fine:D... my days gonna be supper free...as...ok..i wont want to repeat it.. im still holding strong...rest assured....i'll swing my way out of these doors...& i will.. if running away was my options..& i would...you get the link somehow???i will do anything.. for a person whose loving me,and hating me too soon...so im gonna get the fact right.. he dont love me no more..and..when i remebered the way i plead...it felt too deep to understand my real thoughts...even if i bleed...like waterfall..as i know...u wont care...like how it is now. u hurt me..letting me go..just for the sake to satisfy what u want...well,...its not always about you boy...i got my stand too...& ure making me sacrifise..just because u wanted to go the way u want..& if u said you cared bout my feelings...and if u breathed to say u loved me.. im more broken than ever to say that...u lied,...u nvr did..if u did.. u wouldnt make me feel so hurt to cry for buckets & days with swallen eyes..just for you.. i contacted you...but u dont feel easy...im feeling you..i know when u dont & when u said u really do...everything was made up..to a fine story..where one lived,and the other one made sacrifises..& i play the role in the sacrifises for real.. to be lying down flat..was where u want me too..& to be stepped on so hard.. im still here breathing.. not losing yet.. im hanging on..